[It isn't quite the sentence that does it, but the repetition of it inside her head -- we can't ignore it, we're all here, it affects all of us -- that causes Rei to toss the blade she was holding toward the floor, with a clatter.]
What makes you think that I don't know that, Usagi?
[It's quiet, but desperate, Hino Rei backed into a corner that caused her to do something so dangerously reckless in the first place.]
I have been here for a year and a half -- of constant murder, and bloodshed, and chaos, and I have seen people come to this world and leave it just to die, I know what is at stake for the people who live here. I know what happens when people go home to die. And I know what will happen those girls when they come back. They're cursed. There is nothing that will save them short of returning to their world and defeating whatever put them in that position in the first place and we can't do that because we are trapped here and the only hope that we had of doing that was inside that stupid city and I tried to make it work and I couldn't!
I just lost a year and a half of work and progress and trust in this city because I wanted to do exactly what you are telling me to do and it isn't possible. The Animus are the ones in charge, the Animus are the ones who send us back and forth, and we are at their mercy, and there is nothing we can do about it except pray to whoever is listening that it isn't us next, because they are too powerful to defeat. So --
[And Rei stoops to pick up the knife, her fingers shaking, and it's obvious she's trying not to cry, but she manages to keep it in check out of a sheer stubbornness not to do so.]
Don't -- tell me that I'm ignoring it and that I'm just brushing off something that affects us all because I have -- way too much on my shoulders right now to -- to just fix something that can't be fixed, like -- that I just got half of this city killed, including those girls, and some of them were by my own hand. Okay? I can't -- plan anything right now except how to get people into a house and find enough food to feed the people that are going to starve because I tried to fix the damn impossible.
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What makes you think that I don't know that, Usagi?
[It's quiet, but desperate, Hino Rei backed into a corner that caused her to do something so dangerously reckless in the first place.]
I have been here for a year and a half -- of constant murder, and bloodshed, and chaos, and I have seen people come to this world and leave it just to die, I know what is at stake for the people who live here. I know what happens when people go home to die. And I know what will happen those girls when they come back. They're cursed. There is nothing that will save them short of returning to their world and defeating whatever put them in that position in the first place and we can't do that because we are trapped here and the only hope that we had of doing that was inside that stupid city and I tried to make it work and I couldn't!
I just lost a year and a half of work and progress and trust in this city because I wanted to do exactly what you are telling me to do and it isn't possible. The Animus are the ones in charge, the Animus are the ones who send us back and forth, and we are at their mercy, and there is nothing we can do about it except pray to whoever is listening that it isn't us next, because they are too powerful to defeat. So --
[And Rei stoops to pick up the knife, her fingers shaking, and it's obvious she's trying not to cry, but she manages to keep it in check out of a sheer stubbornness not to do so.]
Don't -- tell me that I'm ignoring it and that I'm just brushing off something that affects us all because I have -- way too much on my shoulders right now to -- to just fix something that can't be fixed, like -- that I just got half of this city killed, including those girls, and some of them were by my own hand. Okay? I can't -- plan anything right now except how to get people into a house and find enough food to feed the people that are going to starve because I tried to fix the damn impossible.