[It's almost like an anvil is taking off of her lungs at the smile -- and Rei almost laughs to herself, but she manages a slight smile, and a sniff as she inhales deeply.]

Right -- I will. I will. I just -- I really... needed to fix it. So many people rely on me here, Ami, even if they don't say so, and I hate being trapped here and feeling so useless and --

I just needed to try.