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I'm not going to be home for a day or so, so don't worry about me.

I'll probably be at the clinic later tonight. I'll let you know.

*List: Cloud, Zack, Makoto, Usagi, Minako, Chibiusa/Black Lady, Hotaru.

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Mhm.

[Before the war, anyway.]

Really easy going.

Everyone together and happy.

A perfect world, I guess.

Or do we just think so? The war had to start from something, after all.

I don't know. I haven't really thought about it.

I guess I'm thinking about weird things, huh?

They're not weird.

I wonder if I was a good princess in the past.

I'm sure you were.

I have a long way to go to catch up, huh?

I think you do a great job now.

Well, I'll do my best.

That's all anyone could ask.

But it's not enough, is it?

Why do you say that?

I can't do anything. I'm no good to anyone.

[She's silent for a moment before she exhales, slowly.]

You aren't the one who couldn't prevent something they saw two weeks ago.

Rei-chan, that's different. You know that. And you helped them a lot.

I promised them that I wouldn't let it happen.

[Well. Promised Hitsugaya, anyway. Sasuke didn't want to hear it.]

But you did everything you could. I'm sure they know that.

[She knows they do. Or, at least, Hitsugaya does. And she's certain Sasuke won't hold anything against her when he comes back to life. It doesn't stop her from feeling immensely guilty.]

You do everything you can and you do it well, Usagi-chan. You shouldn't feel bad about anything.

But I haven't been able to do anything.

[And, the truth is, she's pretty sure no one really wants her to. She just seems in the way when she tries, or she's told not to before she can even try, or those walls go up again. She really has very little confidence left.]

[She's silent for a moment.]

I told you not to come with me because Toushirou needed someone to stop him and that person was me, Usagi-chan. Not because you couldn't do anything.

[Though Usagi couldn't have stopped him. But saying this out loud would've made it worse.]

[If it were just about that, she could accept that. If it were just about one or two or even several anything, she could accept it. But it's... consistent. Constant. Every time she turns around, there's another angry face, another person she can't do anything for, another stone wall.]

It's not just that. Rei-chan, I can't even keep the senshi together. That's the one thing I should be able to do if you keep saying I'm the leader or the princess or whatever.

Ami-chan went home because the Animus sent her home, Usagi-chan, not because you couldn't keep us together. We're all together and we're all here.

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