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I'm going out for a couple of hours.

I'll be back soon.

ooc: If you want to offline her by stumbling across her, she'll be at the edge of the Wastelands.

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Well ... you might find a way. Who knows ?

[These girls are pure and idealistic. Gems. This world is very hard on them.]

[Rei is less idealistic than Usagi -- if anything, Adstringendum has beaten the idealism in Rei down to a glistening remnant, but it's still there. And Rei is fighting, desperately, to keep that alive.]

Yeah. Who knows.

It is not weak to cry in front of friends or ask for their reassurance, Hino-san.

[A soft squeeze on her shoulder.]

Edited 2011-04-03 19:09 (UTC)

[Her chin wibbles ever so slightly, but Rei tightens her jaw.]

I know.

Do you ?

[Unohana finally walks around Rei to look at her, and puts a tender hand on the girl's cheek.]

You do not have to be strong all alone all the time, Hino-san.

[Rei stiffens at the hand on her cheek, but looks up at the older woman with something of a blank expression, truly stunned by the gesture.

She's never had a mother before. -- well, she did, when she was young, and Rei has vague memories of her, before her death, but she was forced to grow up without one. And, most of the time, Rei doesn't feel like a fifteen year old high-school student, just because she hasn't been a fifteen year old high school student for a very long time.

But it's times like these -- the nature of this place, the constant pressure upon her to keep Usagi happy, the threat of disappearance and memory loss peeking around the corner at every given opportunity -- that Rei, not for the first time, but certainly with regret, wishes she could be normal.

A lump is lodged in her throat as she fights down the tears -- because even with that horrendously guilty thought, Rei still refuses to cry.

Or, at least, she gives it an excellent shot, before one or two leak out.]

[Unohana is still smiling warmly, and she will open her arms, to hug Rei, if the girl wants the support.

Many a person has cried on her shoulder, and it has helped most of them.]

It is okay, Hino-san.

[She just wants Cloud to come back. But as Rei can't control that aspect of her life here...

Well, she can certainly control a hug. That's not difficult, right?

So Rei hugs Unohana, tightly, as if the woman might disappear herself.]

[Unohana's arms close around Rei, hands softly rubbing her back in a comforting way. She does not say anything else. She does not protest the tightness with which Rei holds onto her, nor does she remark on the tears now that a few have managed to escape.

She is just ... there. Warm, and solid, and accepting.]

[She only allows herself to cry for a few seconds -- the rest of it is just her breath hitching as she struggles to control herself. It's hard, to let yourself go when you typically don't -- but if you fill a bottle too high, it eventually bursts.]

[Whatever comes out is good anyway.]

It is okay, Hino-san.

[It is true that Rei has always been contained, bottling everything up ... maybe this is why she and Hitsugaya-taichou get along so well, in fact. But the pressure needs to be released every once in a while.

Unohana's embrace is strong and reassuring, but at the same time loose enough that Rei can step out whenever she wants.]

Try to breathe slowly. Deep breaths.

[It's extraordinarily difficult to rely on other people when you've spent so much time relying only on yourself. It's gotten better, easier, since she met Usagi -- but being shoved into a new world without the senshi to rely on had taught her several very hard lessons.

And now that some of the senshi were here, Rei was struggling to connect the two halves of herself again. And it hurt, especially when Usagi expects so much more out of her, even if the other girl doesn't realize it.

Her breathing becomes a little bit slower and a little bit more even the more time passes.]

Good, good ...

[Unohana's hands are still rubbing soothing small circles on Rei's back.]

And next time you feel like crying ... do it. Alone if you'd rather, but do not hold back, alright ? Let it out.

[She coughs, slightly, before rubbing her cheek almost furiously with a sleeve.]

I hate crying.

Do you know why people cry, Hino-san ?

[She shrugs a little.]

Tears are the body's reset button. They function as a stress reliever by releasing endorphins in your system.

Having a good cry every once in a while can really help. I guarantee it as a healer.

[She blinks for a moment before she smiles a little tearfully.]

Well, I can't argue with that.

No, I really do not think you can.

[She pats Rei's shoulder gently.]

Just remember it next time you feel like crying.

I will.

Good.

Now, I am sure many of your friends will ... just happen to pass by, so I shall leave you to it.

[She snorts softly to herself. No doubt Usagi is already on her way -- Al, too. Hitsugaya was probably watching from a distance.]

Thank you, Unohana-san.

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