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Guys?

[Rei sounds worried -- which is rare, for her. And, surprisingly, this is not about the fact that she still does not have access to her powers. Though she did throw something of a personal fit to herself when they did not come back.]

I haven't seen Youma in three or four hours and he usually comes in by now. Let me know if you see him so I can come get him. He usually doesn't wander far, but...

He looks like this.

ATTACHMENT; photo

Like I said, let me know.

ooc; Yeah, yeah, I spam too much, BUT. This was too fun to pass up. 8) WE NEED SOME HURR UP IN THIS DERP. Youma is not actually missing. A stupid mortal angel decided to borrow him. 8| But have some fun poking around and feel free to find other cats and other generally silly things to make up for it. Rei will find Youma in a couple of hours and let everyone know in that hand-wave-y kind of way, but until then, the stupid cat is missing.

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[Aha. So that was the reason behind the rebellion against Heaven. Rei purses her lips slightly to herself, bothered. Fate was fate -- destiny could never be truly altered, no matter how many times Castiel insisted that it could. But lying about trying to stop the Apocalypse, being hand-fed along, only to be betrayed...

Rei would have done the same thing, she realizes in slight annoyance, miffed by the circumstances. But Castiel is still talking to her, and Rei shrugs a little.]

I don't think you'll ever know for sure -- but if you managed fine until that point, then I think you probably got past it. Purgatory is what pushed you towards what you did, not the... reprogramming.

[Saying it like that is positively revolting, but Rei doesn't want to just out and say the word 'torture' when he prefers the other way. And the idea that they would use torture on their own family -- not just allies, or soldiers, but family -- makes Rei a special sort of infuriated.]

I'd trap them all and teach them a lesson if I could. -- and, you know, Raphael is here.

[He's quiet at that, thinking back as he had been so much lately, looking over his decisions over time and trying to figure out when he'd started to go off course. The souls may have had something to do with what had happened, but it's likely they weren't all of it.

But aside from being so shaken and terrified of being taken back to Heaven again that he'd let Sam loose and turned in Anna, what had changed after the reprogramming? Other than eliminate the sense of trust and familial bond he used to so strongly have, the torture had done nothing but destroy part of him, the idealistic portion that had viewed humans as works of art and the world as a shining thing of beauty. It had never returned, but to walk away with only those losses was better than what might have happened. Better than what had happened to Anna.]

Maybe. It's simply... If it was only Purgatory, the change was so quick.

[Which was terrifying. If he could snap, just like that, who knows what might happen. If it hadn't been gradual, did he have any hope at all of avoiding it? This wasn't an external enemy he could fight. This was something within him and he couldn't even trust himself.

He pulled his thoughts away from that, though, at her offer.]

Dean killed Zachariah. It was a fitting end for him after everything he'd done.

[Zachariah had been terrible to Dean, after all; Castiel would've gladly taken out the other angel himself if he'd had opportunity, but he hadn't. And that a human had killed the smug, superior and self-righteous Zachariah was just too perfect.]

As much as I would like to see Raphael faced with your holy fire, it wouldn't be wise.

[Almost worth it though. Almost.]

[She's silent, for a long moment, to think, before Rei decides to be honest.]

I think you wanted so badly to do the right thing, to keep everyone safe, that you made a lot of decisions that you wouldn't have made if you had given yourself time to think. The souls, working with that demon, and then cracking Purgatory -- all of that inside of you would make anyone lose a part of themselves, even the strongest person.

[Rei pauses before she pulls her knees to her chest, to rest her chin on top of them, watching Youma absently.]

You've made different decisions here to make yourself a better person. And your future has had consequences here, but you've kept working despite them to try and make things better.

[There's a slight pang of guilt, in saying that, before Rei brushes her hair out of her face again.]

Don't let anyone tell you that that doesn't count for anything, including me.

[His eyes are still on the cat in his lap, petting the long fur absently, but he's listening to every word. They're almost reassuring, and he strangely feels a little relieved, like even she thought he might have a chance, even if it was just here.

He had been trying, so hard, to do the right thing. Here, he's come to realize his own judgment may not be reliable, and so the opinion of others was beginning to matter more and more. That she has faith in him, even a little, means something.]

I am going to keep doing so, and I will find a way to fix this.

[Finally, he looks up at her again, and states his next comment so flatly that it must be intentional.]

I will simply continue to ignore you should you say it can't be done, as I have been.

[It wasn't teasing--he couldn't manage such a thing right now--but the comment was definitely light, in a way.]

[She stares back for a moment before her lip twitches as Rei tries not to laugh. It winds up being a fruitless attempt as she snorts to herself in a laugh, shaking her head slightly as she tries to control herself.]

Well, keep ignoring me -- about that. [She is quick to add that -- Castiel doesn't need a loophole to do something stupid. But Rei is quick to return to teasing.] Everything else I say is right.

[Most of the time, anyway. Her attention is caught by how much attention Castiel is giving the cat and she looks thoughtful.]

You've probably never held a cat before you stayed here, huh. I'm guessing angels don't really keep pets -- not that I'm a cat person. I actually have birds, back home. I only started liking cats after I met Artemis and Luna.

Alright. [And he will, too. He's also not smiling yet, but her laughing does cause his expression to brighten just a bit.

He looks back down at Youma briefly, then up at her again at her comment.]

No. I have never pet a cat before. We don't have Earth animals in Heaven.

[He tilts his head slightly at her.]

You have birds?

[The way Castiel says 'Earth animals' makes her think that they have Heavenly animals, but she doesn't ask. At least -- not yet. She feels the explanation may be longer than strictly necessary.]

Crows. Well, at home, I do. Not here.

[She scritches just behind Youma's ear.]

I never wanted cats around just in case they would eat them, but Luna and Artemis eat cat food, I guess. I've never asked Usagi or Minako.

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