[There's a definite pause. John doesn't react to that, but the pause- longer than adequate- says it all.

He sighs and sets about straightening his shirt cuffs.]

I worked in the government, you know. [Airily, like he's just passing the time.] With a lot of people. People I had to step lightly around, people I was forced to respect, because that's politics.

[Another little pause.] One of my tasks was to put out propaganda, supporting the war in America. I had to understand the common people in order to do this effectively. I studied them- and for the longest time, I thought I was successful. [Why is he even telling her this. Nat manages a wry smile.]

I've only recently learned that I've been wrong for years. You'll have to bear with me.