[She opens her mouth to argue more, because -- well, yelling at him oddly makes her feel better, because she knows he can take it with a grain of salt -- but Rei abruptly stops herself once she realizes what he's asking of her.
It doesn't matter how -- Rei just needs to keep going. If not for her own benefit, but for the benefit of other people. And, somehow, the thought that Hitsugaya is commanding her not to give up in his own unique way just makes her more irritated, which culminates in a snapped:]
I'm not going to quit, you idiot.
[No matter how badly she sometimes wants to quit, Hino Rei cannot. There's far too much at stake for her to throw in the towel now. But her frustration with the situation is not gone, and she makes no effort to hide it as she continues.]
But I can't fix this -- place. I can't make Raphael pay for what she did to Cas. I can't make the senshi come back or send Usagi home. I can't get back what I've lost -- any of it. And I'm tired of being at the mercy of psychopaths and spirits and -- all of it -- and do you know that that -- coward, Raphael, she told me what she did to Castiel when I couldn't do anything, during that event? Probably because she was scared, the selfish, conceited, egotistical monster --
[Now she's just babbling -- the product of a week of pent-up feelings at a seriously poor time.]
I'm trapped, I'm stuck, and if one more person in this place tries to tell me that I'm not good enough, I'm going to scream and make sure they eat their words and I'm going to start with Kurotsuchi's tongue and I'm sick of it!
[It ends in a yelled snap before she can properly stop herself, which dies in a hiss through her teeth, and an idle contemplation to shut the feed. Rei elects to keep it open. He'd only bother her more if she acted like more of a child.]
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It doesn't matter how -- Rei just needs to keep going. If not for her own benefit, but for the benefit of other people. And, somehow, the thought that Hitsugaya is commanding her not to give up in his own unique way just makes her more irritated, which culminates in a snapped:]
I'm not going to quit, you idiot.
[No matter how badly she sometimes wants to quit, Hino Rei cannot. There's far too much at stake for her to throw in the towel now. But her frustration with the situation is not gone, and she makes no effort to hide it as she continues.]
But I can't fix this -- place. I can't make Raphael pay for what she did to Cas. I can't make the senshi come back or send Usagi home. I can't get back what I've lost -- any of it. And I'm tired of being at the mercy of psychopaths and spirits and -- all of it -- and do you know that that -- coward, Raphael, she told me what she did to Castiel when I couldn't do anything, during that event? Probably because she was scared, the selfish, conceited, egotistical monster --
[Now she's just babbling -- the product of a week of pent-up feelings at a seriously poor time.]
I'm trapped, I'm stuck, and if one more person in this place tries to tell me that I'm not good enough, I'm going to scream and make sure they eat their words and I'm going to start with Kurotsuchi's tongue and I'm sick of it!
[It ends in a yelled snap before she can properly stop herself, which dies in a hiss through her teeth, and an idle contemplation to shut the feed. Rei elects to keep it open. He'd only bother her more if she acted like more of a child.]