[How many times a month does Hino Rei assure most everyone that Hitsugaya Toushirou only means about a quarter of what he says whenever he's angry? Maybe that was why they were so close -- Rei could read Hitsugaya like a book, Hitsugaya gave her a stable sense of reality, and they made quite the wonderful team.
Somewhere, in the back of her head, Rei faintly realizes that she's never had to assure herself of that -- that it's nonsense, he doesn't actually mean most of that. But it's a hell of a lot harder to say it when it's yourself you're attempting to convince.
Weirdly, what hurts the most is the description of herself. No, Rei can deal with being told she won't ever be good enough. She can even deal with the gross slight against her pride -- those are meaningless, superficial wounds that she can slide underneath the rug and deal with whenever she wants to. But what causes her to pause, what prevents her from yelling back, is what Hitsugaya says she is.
Oh, you're some teenage girl who has some special ability. So what. Deal with it.
As if it weren't her entire life's purpose. As if she hadn't fought, tooth and nail, to live up to her destiny. As if she hadn't died for it.
Twice.
That causes her to fall perfectly silent. There isn't much to say, on her end. Part of her wants to yell back. But the majority of her can't quite find the words to argue with him.]
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Somewhere, in the back of her head, Rei faintly realizes that she's never had to assure herself of that -- that it's nonsense, he doesn't actually mean most of that. But it's a hell of a lot harder to say it when it's yourself you're attempting to convince.
Weirdly, what hurts the most is the description of herself. No, Rei can deal with being told she won't ever be good enough. She can even deal with the gross slight against her pride -- those are meaningless, superficial wounds that she can slide underneath the rug and deal with whenever she wants to. But what causes her to pause, what prevents her from yelling back, is what Hitsugaya says she is.
Oh, you're some teenage girl who has some special ability. So what. Deal with it.
As if it weren't her entire life's purpose. As if she hadn't fought, tooth and nail, to live up to her destiny. As if she hadn't died for it.
Twice.
That causes her to fall perfectly silent. There isn't much to say, on her end. Part of her wants to yell back. But the majority of her can't quite find the words to argue with him.]