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[flameandpassion]

[There's a silence, for a long moment -- before Rei finally works up the nerve to say something. She sounds tired.]

It's getting a lot harder to keep believing everything has a purpose in this place.

[There's a long rush of air as Rei exhales.]

It's almost as if the Animus don't want us here -- but if that's true, then why have I been here for over a year? Why have some people been here longer? What makes some of us different?

-- if anyone's got any ideas, I'd love to hear them.

[The only people Rei would need to tell, about Haruka vanishing, would be the senshi themselves. And the senshi, being the senshi, already know. So why repeat something painful?

But all the same, she seems to want to say more -- before she ends the feed.]

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[Video]

[al_truism]

[Al opens his mouth for a moment, then closes it with a sigh. Sometimes, even he doesn't have constantly optimistic answers.]

I don't think the Animus really have as much control over it as they like to pretend.

[text]

[knew-anyway.livejournal.com]

Nothing has a purpose. Especially not here. Our lives are what we make of them, nothing more, nothing less.

But, you're asking the right questions. Someday, we will uncover the answers- I'm confident in this.

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[supermistfrog.livejournal.com]

[Have a froggy with a black eye and split lip staring you down.]

The animus aren't the ones keeping us here.

...

And there is no reason why some people are imprisoned longer than others. This place is Adstringendum- does Rei really expect anything here to be logical?

[bestestfurrend]

:33 < oh that sounds like a long time :((
:33 < but im afuraid ive only just got here so i dont really know anything about the purrlace yet

[law-of-reason.livejournal.com]

Humans adore finding meaning, don't they?

[Video]

[flameandpassion]

[She looks tired, but calm. Resigned, even.]

So it's all chance?

[text]

[flameandpassion]

Just because you don't know the purpose doesn't mean there isn't one.

You're new here, aren't you?

[Video]

[al_truism]

Some, I think. But chaos can't exist without some order, and order can't be defined without chaos.

[Smile. He's getting existential again.]

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[flameandpassion]

Then who is? The scientists?

[It's an honest question. But at the next question, Rei releases a rush of air, and she looks... tired.]

I'm no closer to understanding now than I was when I first got here.

[flameandpassion]

What's your name?

[flameandpassion]

You don't?

[Video]

[flameandpassion]

It's not a matter of order or chaos. It's whether or not we're meant to be here.

[Video]

[al_truism]

... I don't know.

[Soft, a little subdued.]

I know what it is for me, and for Ed and Negi... and for my mother and father. But others, I'm not sure.

But I tend to view this place mostly as a second chance, or a means of growing.

[bestestfurrend]

:33 < nepeta leijon
:33 < its furry nice to m33t you!

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[golden_hawke]

-=He already knows people have left.=-

... Mayhaps it is not the Animus who keep us here. Another force...

[Video]

[flameandpassion]

[She is quiet, for a long moment, before she speaks.]

I -- need to believe that I'm here for a reason.

[Because nothing else makes sense.]

[Video]

[al_truism]

Maybe there's something you have to learn.

[flameandpassion]

Hino Rei. It's nice to meet you, Nepeta.

video

[flameandpassion]

Then what is it?

[Video]

[flameandpassion]

I've lost more than I've learned.

[But that's a lesson in and of itself, isn't it? The need to keep on going.]

video

[golden_hawke]

I do not know.

[Video]

[al_truism]

Have you really?

[Soft, reasonable. He remembers feeling like this, the hopelessness of it.]

[bestestfurrend]

:33 < hi hino!
:33 < are you okay?
:33 < you sounded a bit sad in your post :((

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[flameandpassion]

... I'm never going to give up.

[That much is said with confidence, but it's trying.]

But I can't -- I can't keep lying to myself and say that I don't want to. I can't keep fighting things I can't defeat. And I can't keep seeing the senshi come and go.

Haruka --

[She had flat out told Rei she needed to be more of a soldier. And she had tried. And it had blown up, spectacularly, in her face.]

[law-of-reason.livejournal.com]

Meaning is subjective. It's less interesting to study.