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Riku's PCD is offline.

[She sounds oddly... calm about the news, but those that know her well know that it's getting to her. First Makoto vanishes, then Rhode vanishes, making Tyki unstable, and now Riku.

Especially Riku. Because Rei knows what's lying in store for him when he returns home.

There's a quiet pause, as if she's about to continue with what she's going to say, before she shuts off her PCD.]

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[She doesn't answer, her eyes averted. How can she say 'If I die, I didn't want to have anything I regretted'? Instead, she remains silent, wrapping her arms around her midsection.]

I can't believe you.

[He's cursing himself, internally, at least, for allowing himself to trust someone so fully, when it was more than apparent now that they didn't hold that same level of trust in him.]

I'm telling you for a reason.

[Her voice is quiet.]

Not even the senshi know.

I'm not them.

That's what I'm trying to say.

[She hasn't told the senshi. She won't tell the other senshi. But she told him.

She sucks in a quick breath to exhale it, arms still around her midsection.]

... I'm the only one that can do it. And -- I have to. I have to do this, to keep this city safe, to try and take control, because I can't let these events keep happening and keep hurting people, Cloud. Usagi died because of one of them, so did Sasuke, you almost did, and so did Toushirou, I can't keep letting these things happen to the people that I care about and love.

Did you ever stop and think that maybe I'd be able to help you? You're not the only one who can protect the people you care about.

Of course I did. And I know that you can.

But it isn't just my plan.

[Hitsugaya trusts maybe three people in Adstringendum. Rei just happens to be one of them.]

Of course it isn't.

[But he trust Usagi. Think about that one, Rei.]

... I'm sorry I didn't tell you. I wasn't supposed to tell anyone, but I couldn't --

[She wrings her hands for a moment.]

... I couldn't.

[There's a pause, long and full of tense silence.]

Why?

I hate hiding things and I hate keeping things from people and I don't want to keep things from you.

[She looks genuinely upset over the matter. Rei is very used to being an open book with the senshi, but in Adstringendum, she can't be.]

I couldn't have you tell me that and... hide something like that from you. It wouldn't be right.

[Her words caused him to soften, his anger slowly dissipating until there was nothing left but a calm sort of acceptance. His life was in shambles. He had lost his best friend, possibly for good, and someone he had once thought to be a friend had been the cause of it. The last thing he wanted was to lose Rei.

And after all, it wasn't like he wasn't hiding something too.]

You're not the only one who has secrets.

What do you mean?

[There was no easy way to say this, but maybe... simple was best.]

I was trying to help Horst. I thought... maybe mako could slow the progression of his disease. And the only way to find it here... is in my blood.

[Horst.

Horst crossed a line with Rei, a few days ago. Her lips purse tightly together, but she doesn't say anything for a moment or two.]

...you're kinder than I am.

I didn't want him hurting anyone.

[It was the same thing, in the end, and the reasons for keeping it a secret were the same.]

Does it hurt you?

I can handle it.

That doesn't answer my question.

Not for long.

... good. I'm glad you helped him.

[She may be pissed at him, but he shouldn't suffer like that.]

[He takes a deep breath, worrying at his bottom lip before turning his attention away from her.]

I want to go with you.

You can't.

[It's a quiet response.]

I could. If you really wanted me to.

I don't want anyone to go with me.

[If it were up to her, she'd do it so that no one else would be in danger, but she made the mistake of talking about the plan with Hitsugaya Toushirou. That put an end to that.]

And... the plans have been made. Adding more people would only put more people in danger. You can't go.

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