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flameandpassion) wrote2011-08-28 02:13 pm
flameandpassion) wrote2011-08-28 02:13 pm
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[There's a silence, for a long moment -- before Rei finally works up the nerve to say something. She sounds tired.]
It's getting a lot harder to keep believing everything has a purpose in this place.
[There's a long rush of air as Rei exhales.]
It's almost as if the Animus don't want us here -- but if that's true, then why have I been here for over a year? Why have some people been here longer? What makes some of us different?
-- if anyone's got any ideas, I'd love to hear them.
[The only people Rei would need to tell, about Haruka vanishing, would be the senshi themselves. And the senshi, being the senshi, already know. So why repeat something painful?
But all the same, she seems to want to say more -- before she ends the feed.]
It's getting a lot harder to keep believing everything has a purpose in this place.
[There's a long rush of air as Rei exhales.]
It's almost as if the Animus don't want us here -- but if that's true, then why have I been here for over a year? Why have some people been here longer? What makes some of us different?
-- if anyone's got any ideas, I'd love to hear them.
[The only people Rei would need to tell, about Haruka vanishing, would be the senshi themselves. And the senshi, being the senshi, already know. So why repeat something painful?
But all the same, she seems to want to say more -- before she ends the feed.]
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[A tiny, tight smile.]
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... no. I didn't.
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I was... really angry. And depressed. It was a hopeless feeling. Powerless. Like nothing had meaning.
[Al half-laughs, shaking his head. There are tears at the corners of his eyes.] I felt... almost like it wasn't worth it to get up in the morning sometimes, because what was the point?
[Yeah. Even Al was there.]
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[Quietly.]
I always find the senshi. We're all parts of a whole. But -- Toushirou, Cas -- you -- even me, if I leave here, I couldn't --
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[Very soft, painful.]
But Rei... when things get hard, or when you lose something, or when you're in pain, it puts you in the best position to find what's truly important.
No one would ever become stronger if they never struggled.
... and you know, Sasuke used to hate me. [Al half-laughs.] Until we went through the inner city together, and I took a bullet while I was carrying him out of there.
If that hadn't happened, I'm not sure how things would have turned out.
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But I need to know why and I never will.
[It's that -- that the answer will forever be out of her grasp -- that bothers her most of all.]
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Don't beat yourself up for not knowing. I'm not sure anyone does.
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The key to figuring out why we're here is with them. I'm sure of it.
[Or it could be another false lead. Either way, Rei can't accept not doing anything.]
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This place was meant for something -- and someone knows the truth of why and how this place was created.
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[Very softly. This is so dangerous, Rei.]
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[It's not for her -- well. She would be lying if she said it wasn't completely for her. But she needs to have someone leave with their complete memories. His future completely and utterly depends on it.]
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There isn't.
[So very quietly.]
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[She thought she had. A long time ago. But circumstances change.]
I need to find the scientists.